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Saturday, May 07, 2005

hey ppl...i've actually survived four days of exams!!...and im already so tired...now i got no mood to study for chem and add maths... die ah... wo si liao le.... aiya... i dunno wad to say abt the exams ah... i clould ans but i dun think its wad the question wants... so tricky... and i think i screwed up e maths.....hopefully lit wasn tt bad...geog elec oso... hope my results are the same as my feeling after doing the ppr... aiya nvm ah...hu cares abt wad's over??....haha...

yesterday...after the paper...S.h.m.d.S went out for our first historical outing..thats..si xuan.haseenah.maria.divya.shermaine....hahaha... and we had so much fun...tickle tickle laughter laughter... hahahaha... we went to me and sher's historical location...which is mac's and we saw u noe hu lover... and were like running away... and then we were like totally laughing for so many things... then we went to parkway to buy maria's mum sth... and we saw joanne and melissa... oh ya, before tt, i went to value to buy me and haseenah's historical sweet... wich is the cloud nine thing... hahaha... so fun man!!...then went to mph...me, maria and haseenah's historical spot...[rmb!!!]i was like totally scolding the saleswoman...hopefully she got the hint...stoopid lady...and the bears there are like so cute... i oso wan..[hint hint]... but not the small tiny type... i wan the big big one... tt i can hug... wen im all so sad and lonely...wich happens quite often...huh...ok anyway...ya, then we went to hallmark... and bought the gift then went to ice lemon tee... to get ourselves a historical thing... but we were too broke... and after all the looking ard... we din noe wad to buy... all too ex... haha..ya, then time flies wen ur having fun rite... then, me sher and maria...ran home.... coz it was so late aready... huh... lucky i escaped wen i got home...hope shermaine din get into trouble man... haha...ya,then wen i got home, i was so bored and all... maria was online...then called her... and we toked for 1 hr plus... and i got into so much trouble for tt man...hahaha... but was fun...we were playing the matchmaking game...haha... ya, then din tok to anyone until later at nite... en i was chatting wid joanne online... my god ah joanne... i din noe ppl cld be so mean... its ok... our two troops can join forces... i din realise tt joanne and i have so much in common... and dun worry jo, our lit is definitely better la... ya, so i was having sich a nice conversation and all...then haseenah called me... we toked for quite a while... so long haven tok like tt... thx!!...had fun... haha... ya, then i was like totally pissing her of... so sorry.. i noe its not true... but i wanted u to admit tt i dun have a new guy... it ws juz a tactic and it worked... u said it urslef... haha... so i wun disturb u anymore...hahaha... then after we toked for a long long while and we played the matchmaking game... he called... and we made conference... muz do it more often... hahaha... quite fun... ya, then i had to put down... of coz wad...was already going to be ten...haha... so ya, tt whole part was fun...hope more nites can be like tt...

oh ya...and at nite...wen i was listening to music and all.. and i was doing was i was doing... i realised tt... i dunno wad im doing...seriously...i dunno hu to turn to...i dunno if i shld trust my instincts...i dunno if i love him... i dunno wad to do next...i dunno where to turn...wd am i gonna do... am i asking for the impossible??...then y isnt anything going the wae i plan??... everything is like turning tables on me... its all going wrong...coz yesterday...i realised tt its all hopeless... and im wasting my time on him...i dunno wad's happeneing behind my back...i dunno hu to trust... is he worth it...or is he juz playing games wid me...how??...help!!!...i am seriously crying for help...i need it... i dunno where to go from here... i really honestly seriously dunno wad to do anymore!!!!!!!!

do i love h.i.m??

divvie my life 8:39 AM